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If I could say one thing to girls and women everywhere.
It would be that…..
His love is everlasting.
His love changed me.
His love transformed me.
His love converted this girl that was soon to become a stripper and later if given the chance an adult movie star. And believe me I don’t say any of that to boast because how could anyone in their right mind brag about something so disdainful as those lifestyles.
God’s love can transform anyone.
I’ve personally witnessed just to name a few…. drug addicts, alcoholics, and even “goody two shoes” touched by God’s love. If I know anything it’s that His love causes you to want more in life.
To want what your soul knows you were created for!
You were not made to waste away in some cheap version of love the world throws at you.
But I also know how it is to be in a place where that’s all you’ve ever known.
I thought love was giving yourself away. I mean if that was the only way I was going to FEEL love than of course I’ll be a stripper.
But what if a love so pure comes bursting in! A love so true that it literally leaves you wanting more. Except this time you don’t have to do anything cheap or vile for it.
It’s like that very Love shines through your very being and makes you whole.
I was so lost and didn’t even know it. But that’s how it usually is right? We can deny our sickness but if we have every symptom than the evidence is there. So even though I wouldn’t have admitted I was living for a cheap version of love. I definitely was. My symptoms were…I wanted to become a dancer. Also the way I dressed revealed not only my body but my hearts brokenness.
You see you can try to hide your heart but what’s inside will always come oozing out in one way or another.
God’s love proved to me that cheap thrills can NEVER satisfy your souls longing for true intimacy!
The whole human race has that desire for real love and intimacy inside them. That is why I believe so many run after the superficial tastes of it. They jump from bed to bed searching… They choose to become someone they hate. They willingly throw themselves at the alter of sin just to stop the deep cravings they feel.
So let me say it again. His love is everlasting.
His love chases and pursues you. As long as you are still breathing there is hope and a chance for you to accept His everlasting love.
So this once bruised up and busted girl never got to experience that world of hell that I would’ve if I had not allowed God’s love to cover my heart and rescue me from the world’s filth.
I don’t know who I’m writing this for. But just know that His love is out there following you. Pursuing you day by day. Waiting for you to realize that He is all you really want. Nothing more. Nothing less.
Well guys….This is it.
My 30 year birthday is only a week and a half away! How did I get here so quick?
Wasn’t it just yesterday I was a young, dumb, confused, and very lonely teenage girl?
So… as I begin to say good-bye to my twenties I dedicate this post to my soon to be 30 years of LIFE.
I know some might judge me as being old. While others may judge me as still being a “baby”.
But either way one thing I know for darn sure is I have entered a wise stage of life and I want to share some of that.
Here are some things I have learned. . . For life sure has a way of teaching you many things willingly AND unwillingly in 30 years. Right?
1. That even after devastating betrayal your heart is able to forgive. Able to keep beating. And still able to go on.
2. That a lot of stuff you think matters really doesn’t matter at all. Such as the car you drive, the house you live in or what brand of clothes you may be wearing. It just doesn’t matter. We came into this world naked and we will all leave this world not taking one single material thing with us!
3. If God is all you have you already have everything you’ll ever need. (I learned this and number 2 above more deeply last month on a mission trip to Mexico). God gives and God takes away. But if your heart is set and aligned in God than it doesn’t matter what may come or what doesn’t come. Better yet it won’t matter what you own or not. I met beautiful people on our trip last month that did not own much but their faces were radiant with joy and peace. I can not even express the love they bestowed upon me and many didn’t even know me. And I believe it was all because they held the secret many Americans are so desperately looking for. They had God and that was enough!
4. If someone doesn’t like you. IT’S OK!
Now hear me out I’m not talking about treating people with no respect and kindness or in a blatantly rude or cruel manner all the while not understanding why they prefer to stay away from you.
There is a line. What I am saying is I know what it is to love on people and be there for them and all you get in return is their ugliness, hatefullness, and stabs in the back. I know you might not believe this but there are some callous people out there!! Yes even in the “Christian” world. 😦 So when you can honestly say you’ve loved them like Jesus. And they still don’t like you. IT’S O-K-A-Y! “Religious” people known as the Pharisees in the Bible hated Jesus. Come on who could hate Jesus? He healed the sick, brought the dead back to life, loved the worse of the worse and even took time to love on children. Really? Yup, they still couldn’t stand Him. So when you come across some “Pharisees” in your life, in your church, or wherever. Remember you can’t make someone like you, you can’t make someone love you, BUT you can always forgive them and pray for them.
5. Simple is beautiful. (Now this something that I am actually in the process of learning). You see from an early age I wore makeup and lots of it. Pretty much it was my identity. Without it I was a nobody. I was ugly. And honestly I still think like that at times. But here recently God began showing me something that in reality I didn’t want to see. He started dealing with my heart. He started trying to let me know that HE is my identity.
When we lose ourselves in wordly matters we lose something that God so lovingly wants us to never forget. That our value comes from Him. And only Him.
Do you know that a prostitute or homeless person on the street is just as valuable and important to God as the pastor or missionary that helps brings souls to Christ? Yes.
God wanted me to understand that He sees me full of worth and beauty no matter how I may look to others.
That’s one reason I truly believe many girls walk around half dressed or why sadly many give themselves away far too easily to boy/man after boy/man, night after night. They are just trying and searching for their self-worth. They just want to feel special. Beautiful. valuable.
So they give their self-respect and body away even if it’s just for 10 minutes of pleasure.
Listen woman YOU ARE FULL OF WORTH! You are LOVED! You are WORTH FIGHTING FOR!
Your value DOES NOT come from what others see when they look at you! Your identity is in God. Because He made you. He created you!
It may sound too simple I know. It can be hard to really believe that in this world we live in. But it’s the flat out TRUTH.
It’s something that I am still learning. But it is something that I never want to forget. Especially since it took me practically 30 years to learn!
So guys it may look like I haven’t learned much. But I promise I have. There’s so much more I’ve learned and also so much I want to forget in 30 years.
We all grow up and grow old but we all have a choice to not grow cold.
This morning I prayed. And as I sat there on my living room floor I pondered. ….
If you have read some of my other postings you know that God saved me as a young girl. I may have been just a young girl but this young girl already had many plans for her life. Destructive plans. Plans that I now look back and shudder at the thought of what would have become of me if my plans would’ve come to pass. And a question I have thought to myself and asked many times is: Why did God save me before I was totally immersed in the lifestyle I had thought I wanted.So as I sat there musing and talking openly to God. It hit me. Well, it was just a thought but it was almost as if I could feel the truth in it.
I don’t think I would’ve made it out alive.
I sincerely believe I PROBABLY WOULD’VE PUT A GUN TO MY HEAD and pulled the trigger.
I told God all this with tears.
I said God you saved me before perhaps because YOU knew I wouldn’t have made it out alive.
He had so much mercy on me that He called out to me that night as a lonely teenager.
But even though He called. It doesn’t mean I had to have listened.
I could have walked away from Him.
I could have ignored Him.
I could have yelled out to Him in anger instead. Cursing Him for allowing me to go through all that I had gone through up to that point.
But I didn’t.
Oh Thank God I didn’t!
And believe me when I say I don’t think I would’ve put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger simply because “I’m weak”. Or because I just “couldn’t have handled it”. No. I mean yes. Maybe I would’ve been weak. Maybe I would have got to that point where I just couldn’t have handled it anymore. But I believe the real reason I would have pulled that trigger is because of all the SHAME, all the REGRET, and hopelessness I KNOW I would have experienced and felt!
I know I probably would have looked back at my life and wondered where in the world did I go wrong? I know I would have remembered all the times as a little girl that I would run to the back of the shed in my backyard to read my Bible. I know I would have remembered the times I went to church as a young girl and KNEW deep inside that was what life was all about. Worshiping my Creator. I would’ve looked back and remember listening to my mom say her prayers. And as I pulled the trigger I would’ve believed with all my heart that I deserved every ounce of shame.
I would’ve died an empty soul.
Callous, hard, and numb.
But deep inside just truly sad, desperate for real love, and fighting demons that had been assigned to me since childhood.
So I sat there thankful, and in awe of God’s mercy and grace. I cried tears of joy and appreciation that I would never know that day. The day I probably would’ve pulled the trigger.
Thank You Father for saving me. For rescuing me. You seen what could’ve been and you chose to reach out to me that night. You made yourself so real.
I pray You also make Yourself real to all those that are crying out to You today.
If God is calling out to you today…please don’t ignore Him. Please don’t push Him away.
You never know what he may be trying to save you from.
Lots Of Love
DO you know you are not only beautiful but captivating.
Do you know that God really and truly has plans for you. For your life.
Do you know that God seen and knew you even while you were inside your mothers womb.
Do you know He was there that amazing moment you entered into this world.
Those times you felt alone, sad, depressed … Yes… He was there also.
I know it felt like no one cared. But I promise He did. He does.
Those times you felt so REJECTED. His love poured out for you.Your heart beat to know Him.
When others rejected you. When others thought they were too good for you. When others believed you were worthless. He watched you with eyes of fire. A fire of love.
When you really thought that boy loved you. So you ended up giving yourself to him. Mind and Body. He watched with sorrow and sadness. Because He knew the truth. He always does.
But His love remained.
He caught every tear that fell from your eyes when you finally realized that it was never love. Only lust.
I’m sure He whispered that He loved you and that He was madly in love with you when you laid at night on your bed, heartbroken.
He saved you from so much pain even though it may not have felt like it.
And He came running that night. The night you cried out on your knees. It was what He had been waiting for all along. For your heart. For your devotion. For your love.
He picked you up. Washed all your stains and pain away. Healed your heart. Wrapped His arms around you. And whispered again how much He had always loved you.
And then your life began………
Love, your twenty-something self.
Tell me. What would you do if you seen a man in public abusing a woman?
Slapping her around. Puncking her around. Pushing her around.
What would you do or how would you handle that situation especially as a man?
Not to long ago I watched this video about how people responded when they witnessed a couple (two “actors”) in the middle of domestic abuse.
It was good to see that people stood up and intervened!
But for me the best scene was when a man came from behind the boyfriend(actor) and kinda tackled him down to the ground to ‘rescue’ the girl.
It actually made me want to cry even because of the man’s bravery to step in and help!
And even after they informed the man that it was not real and just part of an experiment to raise awareness on domestic abuse. The man continues to ask the girl if she’s okay.
Then it made me think…
“Public” abuse of any kind is considered horrible, illegal, and shameful. BUT what about all the “private” abuse that goes on? You know.. abuse that is kept on the down low.
Like exploitation of women and children!
Or the sexualization of girls.
It’s pretty much everywhere.
Turn on the T.V. BOOM! There it is.
Walk around at the mall and it’ll slap you in the face.
Turn on the radio and yup it’s there too.
And if all else fails. Well, just give it up for porn. Because that sucker will chew you up and spit you out. Leaving you disrespecting girls and callous towards women in general.
No wonder women easily walk around believing they are only worth what they can do sexually!
And the sad part is men sit by and just watch!
They don’t come to their rescue. They don’t run in harms way to save us.
Instead of using their strength and power to push aside or “tackle” whatever is hurting us. They give it all away to their own selfish sexual desires.
Not even realizing
they are left spiritually castrated.
For sexual immorality indeed sucks out all of a man’s valor and strength.
O my son, Do not give your strength to women
For a whore is a deep pit, And a seductress is a narrow well.
She also lies in wait as for a victim, And increases the unfaithful among men.
I can’t speak for a man because I’m not one.
But I could only hope that men would STOP allowing women to be treated as objects that are only used.
And instead magnify their actions that would proclaim that women are human beings to be LOVED!
A man might ask: How?
And this is what I would recommend as a woman myself.
If and when they see a woman being objectified (which means treating a person as a thing, without regard to their dignity).
When they see a girl being sexualized.
Stop! Speak up! Say something!
Help her! Rescue her!
And many times that could simply mean
-TURNING OFF THE T.V.
-CHANGING THE MOVIE. -Or changing the music you hear.
-GIVING UP PORNOGRAPHY for good.
-Speaking to their daughters about the traits of a predator/liar/ narcissist.
-Speaking to their sons about respecting all girls.
Yes, even if they are dressed like prostitutes.
It would be awesome to see men try it.
Next time they came into contact with a girl/woman that unknowingly had the words “Use me” written all over her. Truly look at her. Into her eyes and tell yourself ‘she is an EQUAL to you‘.
Engrave it into your mind that she is worthy of respect and honor and love. Not that she might be dressed like it. BUT because she is a human being just like you.
At the end of the day. When all is said and done. We ALL want to be loved. No matter if we think we deserve it or not. No matter if everyone else told us or made us feel unwanted.
We all need love.
So let’s all try it.
Let’s do our part in NOT allowing ourselves or other women to be treated as things.
*Sadly, I believe lots of people take part in helping the exploitation of children and women without even knowing it.
A man can sit there and watch porn. He can sit there unmoved while a women is getting raped and violently abused in every way possible. He can sit there and witness the exploitation of a girl AND NOT BE MOVED TO RESCUE HER. TO SAVE HER?
What is wrong with that picture?!
I can only hope and pray that women everywhere would stand up, take control and shout NO MORE! to what is being done to them.
And for ALL the men that already are (yes they do still exist)
May your reward be great!
I once believed that sex was somehow connected to aggression.
In a world that glamorizes pornography, pimps, and lust. It’s fairly easy to get sucked into the lie that sex is not special, not truly intimate, and NOT RESPECTABLE.
That sex is just something “everyone” does solely
and ultimately for self-pleasure.
That is exactly what this world would want you to believe.
And I did. I fell into that ocean of deceit.
I can’t tell you when I did. But I believe it had to have been someplace during my childhood.
My vision and idea of sex became distorted.
If only someone would have told me or better yet if I would’ve believed that true pure sex DOES NOT fall into the same category as violence and aggression!
True intimacy DOES NOT feed off of humiliation of a woman.
***That is one reason why pornography can NEVER and WILL NEVER substitute or even come near to comparing to what God created sex to be.
God intended sex to be PURE PHYSICAL TENDERNESS.
Say it again. Out-loud this time. Slowly.
PURE – PHYSICAL – TENDERNESS
Those three words alone caused me to view sex different than what I had believed sex was.
I went years not really knowing or understanding what sex was all about. Even after I married.
And maybe I still don’t understand it fully but one thing I know without a doubt is that: the belief of sexual intimacy that this world holds IS NOT TRUE! That the view of sex that so many people carry IS NOT REAL!
And you can bet that it has a lot to do with living in a strong pornified generation.
Where based on a survey that was done 64 percent of American men and 20 percent of women view pornography at least monthly. AND… you might want to sit down for this…. 18 percent of men believe they may be addicted to pornography. That’s more than 20 million men in deep trouble.
Porn alters the brain.
Porn dehumanizes women.
Porn promotes rape. It fuels the rape culture.
After swallowing all that…it’s No wonder why we have too many men walking around really “believing” that sex is just a loveless, cheap, repetitive act.
It is obvious what kind of life develops out of trying to get your own way all the time: repetitive, loveless, cheap sex; a stinking accumulation of mental and emotional garbage.
Do you really believe that is what we were created for? No.
We are created for more then this garbage that trys to suck anyone in.
It is not racist.
It is waiting to feed off of you.
If you let it.
My heart and mind had become it’s victim at a way too early age.
I fell into it’s snare. Unknowingly.
And even though I probably wouldn’t have admitted it…..my actions told a different story.
I grew up in a home where a true marriage was never modeled. Almost every relationship around me was a bad example of what it should’ve been.
I didn’t know a thing about
You see I gave myself away at 15.
But what I didn’t know at the time was that I had already given myself away long before that.
I had slowly given my heart and mind over to “beliefs” that I thought I knew to be TRUE.
I thought attention and desire alone was love.
But in reality they were traps that led me deeper and deeper into one of the biggest lies I would end up believing.
That sex was everything but love. Everything but pure. Everything but bonding.
Pretty much anything but what God had created it to be.
And those “beliefs” led me and were leading me to some very dark roads.
A road that I now know (12 years later) if given the chance would’ve been pornography. Crazy to think that something I extremely ABHOR now is something I could’ve been a part of.
Every porn worker(star), every stripper, every sex worker willingly or unwilling had a childhood dream once. And I promise you it wasn’t to grow up and become a prostitute or a sex slave.
One thing we all have in common is: We all were at one time in a sense innocent. We believed in love. In Hope. And if someone would’ve told us at that time that sex indeed equaled pure physical tenderness and NOTHING LESS. We would’ve wholeheartedly believed it.
What if I told you that sex was supposed to be a soul-bond forever with
the person you chose to spend the the rest of your life with.
A bond only you would share with that person all your life long. A commitment. A holy gift.
Not something that was meant to be forced. Not something cheap or loveless. Not something just done to excite or entertain others. Not something dirty and impure.
To me it is so very sad that it can take years for someone to actually realize that. When it’s always been the truth.
When you understand Who created intimacy in the first place…you’ll begin to understand what it is. And what it’s NOT.
I believe that is the place where men and women in a sense can gain back that innocence.
It’s hard. But bad habits can be broken. Brain maps can be changed.
We are created for intimacy.
Just not the kind this world, the media, or porn tells you.
I am now no longer ‘bound’ to those “beliefs” I once thought to be true. Because now I know the truth. And the Truth has set me free!
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
It hurts my heart to know that I was stuck in that pit of lies for so long. Even after I was saved and married. Coming to a point where I couldn’t even enjoy intimacy with my then husband because of the lies deeply embedded inside my mind. But God so graciously shined light and exposed it so He could purge it and wash it away.
I am a work in progress.
…From glory to glory friends.
There is always Hope. No matter how messed up our minds have become.
We live in a fallen world.
But the garbage this world would have you eat could NEVER exceed
the reason you were created.
For true, pure, wonderful intimacy first and foremost with your Creator. A love so clean and relishing. That you could never again allow a man to treat you the way you once believed they were supposed to.
True Freedom is peace my friend.
Is sexual freedom really free?
Women are free to have sex with anyone they want.
Anytime they want.
Wherever they want.
But is it really “free” when it takes so much from you? When it robs you of so much. Whether you willingly give it or not. It WILL take from you.
Just stop and look around and you’ll notice countless of girls and women walking about…..that have had their dignity taken from them.
Their self-respect gone.
Their self-worth gone.
Their innocence, their purity, their softness even…GONE. ERASED. TAKEN. STOLEN. Most of the time given away freely by choice.
All in the name of “SEXUAL FREEDOM”.
I chose to give mine away at the age of 15.
My self-worth came from how much attention I could gather from the opposite sex.
It should’ve came directly from my father. Because that’s where I believe every girls self worth stems from. Begins from.
And well sadly I wasn’t given much attention from there.
But the longing was still there.
Just waiting to be fulfilled.
And since it didn’t come to me.
I went out searching for it on my own.
So…. when I was faced with the opportunity to finally gain some much needed attention…. Yup, you guessed it. I GAVE IN.
How many 15 yr old girls like me would’ve? How many DO.
Day after day after day.
And while I gained the attention I so desperately wanted my heart was in return losing so much.
My innocence gone.
My purity washed away.
My self-respect in the trash.
And little did I know at the time my self-worth was actually being torn to shreds.
And memories return of how I was unknowingly giving away the very essences that would’ve kept me content and safely on the road to happiness.
But instead I gave it up for short term “”love””, “fun”, and attention. And what was I left with?
Heartbreak. Which led to more sadness.
Depression. Which led to suicidal thoughts and feelings.
Yeah, all this at the tender age of only 16.
So what a lot of these young girls (and women) that are indulging themselves in “sexual freedom” don’t realize is that in reality IT ISN’T FREE!
IT DOES INDEED TAKE FROM YOU!
The Cost Is Terrible!
I’ve personally witnessed hearts torn, shattered, and bruised after they chose again and again and again to give their dignity away, their self-worth and self-respect away.
THIS IS REAL!!
And It’s happening around us every day!
Just stop awhile and look around. There she is. The girl that gives away her body night after night, party after party. Not because she’s a slut. But maybe because as she gives it up to some dude that is basking in the lust of it. She is in her own little world hoping that it will just quiet her hearts cry for love, attention, and self-worth.
But of course it WON’T!
IT NEVER DOES.
But sadly, she’ll continue trying. Again and again and again.
Same game. Only different faces.
And that my friend is the Multiple Sex Partner TRAP!
It’s so easy to fall into.
And once your in- it’ll strip you!
It’ll strip you of everything your heart truly is. The heart that God created and formed even before you were born.
It slowly chews away at it.
Leaving you feeling used.
It’s an unbearable cycle almost like being on a merry-go-round that never stops spinning.
But there is a way out.
There is an escape route.
Jesus Christ made you to want love. To crave something more than what this world can offer and nothing in it can give you. So you would go after Him. So you would pursue Him for it. He has ALL you need. And He freely gives it! Now that is free. Because He already paid for it. He already paid for you.
You can finally stop searching! He’s right there. Just look up.
He hears your hearts cry.
He sees your souls longings.
And He says, Everything your searching for is in Me.
** Matthew 11:28-29 **
Jesus said, “Come to Me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. … Let Me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Are you or someone you know tired of being hurt by this evil trap?
Tired of it using you, abusing you, and making you cry?
Some cry themselves to sleep.
Some run back to it over and over again.
And there’s probably girls and women that actually kill themselves when they realize that this trap never did and never will satisfy or fill the deep hole they have in their heart.
But believe me. There is a way out. I know because He rescued me.
He took my ashes. (The mess I made.) And in return He gave me back my dignity, my self-worth!
I learned self-respect again.
I learned what purity truly meant.
And I finally can say I know what love is. And I promise you won’t find it anywhere else.
So if your young or old and hungry for attention. Run to the One who freely gives it. And don’t join the Multiple Sex Partners Trap.
What if I told you there was actually someone who would NEVER ever even think about abusing you in any way. A man that didn’t want you just for one thing. A gentleman that absolutely knew your worth and cherished … Continue reading
Doctor: You have Chlamydia
16 yr old girl: blinks
Doctor: How many sex partners have you had?
Girl: In my lifetime?
Doctor: Yeah, Lets start with your lifetime.
Doctor: Do you use condoms?
Doctor: How do you decide if your going to use a condom or not?
Girl: If it’s serious.
Doctor: How many serious relationships have you had?
For those of you wandering….Yes. This was an actual conversation between a doctor and patient.
I still remember
coming home that night after giving myself away for the first time.
Losing your virginity is giving yourself away. And that is what I did that night.
Only if I would’ve known I would regret that night for the rest of my life.
Sadly, chances are this girl will too one day. The nights she gave herself away.
Some might argue “she’s only experiencing” but what if we were meant to only give ourselves away to one person.
Chances are this young precious girl will continue to do what she’s been doing.
Unless she meets someone that cares. Someone that she feels really cares and loves her. Someone that she can trust.
Maybe that someone is you?
I was only 15 that night.
Looking back I had no one really that I could trust. Someone who could’ve shared with me the truth.
That I was truly worth more!
That my heart would only take so much!
That giving away my body exchange for that feeling of love was not real!
That no matter how many boys told me or made me feel pretty, I would never deeply believe it untill I believed it!
And let’s be honest I didn’t.
I felt ugly.
I covered myself with a ridiculous amount of make-up.
Hoping and thinking That it would make me pretty. And at times it did the job. At least that’s what I believed. But the problem was it would only make me feel pretty/worthy for awhile but deep inside my heart I knew I wasn’t truly pretty.
I could have easily looked around me and quickly noticed all the really pretty girls and I knew I couldn’t compare.
So if I was that “someone” that had the opportunity to befriend that young precious girl.
I would share with her:
GOD most definitely has a plan and a destiny just for you.
And none of it weighs upon how much or how less you can compare with all those other girls.
Having sex with 2 boys or with 14 WILL NOT EVER cause you to deeply and wholeheartedly believe that you are beautiful!
Because your worth does NOT come from them!
Let’s say one day:
You alone painted a beautiful and magnificent picture.
But no one else seemed to think that it was indeed magnificent.
They looked at it as ordinary.
Did not pay much attention to it.
But one day here comes walking in the president of a top art museum.
Taking one glance at your art instantly WANTS it. And decides to buy it for millions.
At that point would it matter for a second what any of those other people “thought” about your drawing?
OF COURSE NOT!!
Well, your CREATOR created you beautiful and magnificent! Yes, some people may see you as just plain or ordinary. They may not see your worth and how beautiful and magnificent you truly are. But the King of kings, your Creator and Maker surly does!
He fashioned you perfectly.
Psalm 139:13-16 MSG:
Oh yes, You shaped me first inside, then out; You formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—You’re breathtaking!
*Body and soul, I am marvelously made!*
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out, You know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.
None of those boys can make you believe that you are beautiful and worthy!
Yes, maybe they can make you feel pretty for a little bit.
Or maybe make you feel accepted and wanted for a minute.
But at the end your heart will remain the same. Believing what it believed
in the beginning.
Because your worth does not and cannot come from them or from sex. Or from drugs. Or from alcohol. Or from anything else.
It can only come from the One who formed you and knew you even before you were conceived!
So maybe one reason why I came home that night after losing my virginity still feeling the same. Still broken. Still lonely.
Was because my heart remained the same.
You see you can share your body with any amount of boys you choose. Letting them inside your body.
But you can never let them inside your heart.
There’s only one being you can allow inside your heart and that’s Jesus Christ.
And once you do. You can realize how much worth you had the whole time.
Your worth NEVER lessened. It always remained the same.
It’s just that the only One who could make you believe that was the Only One who made you in the first place.
Your artist. Your Sculptor. GOD.
His love for you never runs out.
Your His workmanship.
Your His responsibility.
Don’t ever forget that friend.
Now go and find a precious girl you can share this with. They’re waiting.
Their hearts hungry. Thirsty. To believe so much more.
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