The day I was almost raped..changed my life

The day I cried out.

Today I want to write about the day God began His incredible journey of healing me.

People may look at me now and never even think or believe where I would be if God might’ve never rescued me from a dead lifestyle.
. . . . . .

But when I was only 16 my heart had already felt much pain.
Much hearbreak.
Much rejection.
Nights I would think of suicide.
I thought I knew what I wanted.
I DIDN’T.

How is it that Someone can actually heal and restore your broken up soul!

I have experienced it. I know.

And it all started with a cry.

The year was 2002.
The month.. January.
I did the dangerous.
I took off with a boy I didn’t really know at all.
But hey, I was a teen girl with a bruised and torn heart remember.
We tend to do some pretty stupid things when our heart is broken or wounded.

We drove around a bit. Then… As it got dark and started to snow. He didn’t take me home. He drove his car to an alley right next to a field. And turned off the engine.

Yes. He wanted to have sex.
But no. Of course, I didn’t want to.
He tried to convince me and no not with words.

But with the little of integrity I had left inside of me I looked out the passenger window and (either in my mind or in a whisper) I pleaded:
“God, get me out of this”.

He did. He really really did.

I wiped my tear away slowly because I didn’t want the boy to see me crying as I turned to look at him. He stared at me said,
“Do you want me to take you home”?

Just like that.

I said yes. (Of course)
He started the car and drove me straight home.
I never ever seen him again.

I walked inside my home and into my room. Closed the door.
And cried.
I cried like a baby.
On my knees. I cried out.

Here I was a 16 year old girl that could’ve been raped.
I know God saved me that night.
I know He heard my plea.

And as I cried out in my room that night. God was already beginning the process of healing me.

I gave my heart to Him that night.
That broken, bruised, torn, abused heart. And in return He began to restore me. He began to change my heart and cleanse my mind.
It’s unbelievable really. It truly was a miracle.

Yes, there are things I wish I had never experienced as a young girl. Things and situations that have left scars. But if I had never experienced them I wouldn’t know now how it feels to be healed and restored.
And believe me I do. I do.

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Sick and Tired of Rejection they become Strippers

What drives a girl to become a stripper.
To become so lost and deprived of any true love but still willing to endure the hell involved.

What really makes a woman want to degrade herself by sharing(selling) her body with(to) the world.
To go to bed at night with tears rolling down her cheeks knowing it’s not worth it. But waking up in the morning continuing the vicious cycle.

REJECTION.

I look back now and see my little heart as a small girl. Rejection was written all over it.

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Not only was I rejected by the first man in my life. My dad. I was then later rejected by boys.
I was stinkin’ tired of rejection!
Tired of offering my heart over and over again. And in return receiving pain, lies, and simply being ignored.

Somewhere in my sick mind I knew I could lose rejection once and for all! Finally.
I knew I wanted to pack my bags and be done with my enemy ..rejection.
My bags contained all I needed to endure this new life I thought I wanted.
My “luggage” would be packed with…
Anger
Bitterness and Hatred
Lust
Rebellion
Greed

And only God knows what else.

My anger, bitterness, and hatred towards my father and men in general would be my fuel that would drive me indeed.

Well, it would’ve driven me but my little journey never began.
Because you see at the age of 16. That lonely girl found herself alone in a room, crying out. Yes. She had already packed her bags nice and full. But at the end all the pain. All the hurt. All the lies and anger would not be enough to hold her back from running to The Saviour!

Could there really be a Man that wouldn’t reject her?? She didn’t know but she had to take the chance.
She unpacked her heavy bags. And she cried. Because for once in her life she could finally just be herself and no longer fear rejection. It was as if He wiped away her tears and cradled her broken heart.

She waved bye to those demons and the devil himself that had been waiting outside the door for her. The path that had been paved just for her vanished. And a new one appeared almost instantly.

How can it be that the Creator of the universe cares for me.

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken
I’m accepted. You were condemned
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I’m alive and well- Your spirt is within me- because You died and You rose again.

You see I realize now that Jesus was rejected FOR US. For me.
I had been rejected countless times. But when I ran into His open arms that night He recieved me.

All that past rejection would’ve definitely caused me to become someone I really wouldn’t have wanted to be. To do things I wouldn’t have really wanted to do.
13 years later scary to think where I would be.

Girls,
It’s time.
Time to UNpack your bags. Let it go. And run into the arms of your Saviour.
I promise He will welcome you.
Of course He will. Remember He was rejected so you wouldn’t have to be.

Lots of Love,
SongsofIntimacy

From rejection to finally being accepted.

When did abusing women become the norm?

Tell me. What would you do if you seen a man in public abusing a woman?

Slapping her around. Puncking her around. Pushing her around.
What would you do or how would you handle that situation especially as a man?

Not to long ago I watched this video about how people responded when they witnessed a couple (two “actors”) in the middle of domestic abuse.

It was good to see that people stood up and intervened!

But for me the best scene was when a man came from behind the boyfriend(actor) and kinda tackled him down to the ground to ‘rescue’ the girl.
It actually made me want to cry even because of the man’s bravery to step in and help!
And even after they informed the man that it was not real and just part of an experiment to raise awareness on domestic abuse. The man continues to ask the girl if she’s okay.

Then it made me think…
“Public” abuse of any kind is considered horrible, illegal, and shameful. BUT what about all the “private” abuse that goes on? You know.. abuse that is kept on the down low.
Like exploitation of women and children!

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Or the sexualization of girls.

It’s pretty much everywhere.

Turn on the T.V. BOOM! There it is.
Walk around at the mall and it’ll slap you in the face.
Turn on the radio and yup it’s there too.

And if all else fails. Well, just give it up for porn. Because that sucker will chew you up and spit you out. Leaving you disrespecting girls and callous towards women in general.

No wonder women easily walk around believing they are only worth what they can do sexually!

And the sad part is men sit by and just watch!
They don’t come to their rescue. They don’t run in harms way to save us.
Instead of using their strength and power to push aside or “tackle” whatever is hurting us. They give it all away to their own selfish sexual desires.
Not even realizing
they are left spiritually castrated.
For sexual immorality indeed sucks out all of a man’s valor and strength.

Proverbs 31:3-
O my son, Do not give your strength to women

Proverbs 23:27-28-
For a whore is a deep pit, And a seductress is a narrow well.
She also lies in wait as for a victim, And increases the unfaithful among men.

I can’t speak for a man because I’m not one.
But I could only hope that men would STOP allowing women to be treated as objects that are only used.
And instead magnify their actions that would proclaim that women are human beings to be LOVED!

A man might ask: How?
And this is what I would recommend as a woman myself.

If and when they see a woman being objectified (which means treating a person as a thing, without regard to their dignity).
When they see a girl being sexualized.
Stop! Speak up! Say something!
Help her! Rescue her!
And many times that could simply mean
-TURNING OFF THE T.V.
-CHANGING THE MOVIE. -Or changing the music you hear.
-GIVING UP PORNOGRAPHY for good.
-Speaking to their daughters about modesty.
-Speaking to their sons about respecting all girls.
Yes, even if they are dressed like prostitutes.

It would be awesome to see men try it.
Next time they came into contact with a girl/woman that unknowingly had the words “Use me” written all over her. Truly look at her. Into her eyes and tell yourself ‘she is somebody’s daughter’.
Engrave it into your mind that she is worthy of respect and honor and love. Not that she might be dressed like it. BUT because she is a human being just like you.

At the end of the day. When all is said and done. We ALL want to be loved. No matter if we think we deserve it or not. No matter if everyone else told us or made us feel unwanted.
We all need love.

So let’s all try it.
Let’s do our part in NOT allowing ourselves or other women to be treated as things.

*Sadly, I believe lots of people take part in helping the exploitation of children and women without even knowing it.

A man can sit there and watch porn. He can sit there unmoved while a women is getting raped and violently abused in every way possible. He can sit there and witness the exploitation of a girl AND NOT BE MOVED TO RESCUE HER. TO SAVE HER?
What is wrong with that picture?!

I can only hope and pray that women everywhere would stand up, take control and shout NO MORE! to what is being done to them.

I can only continue to hope that men everywhere would push away the vices and gain back their strength once again and FIGHT FOR US!
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And for ALL the men that already are (yes they do still exist)
THANK YOU!
May your reward be great!

~~songsofintimacy. 💋

Thankful for REAL men…

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If you are listed below….Let me just say THANK YOU!! I have respect/admiration
for you.

I am thankful for:

The men who choose to nurture, love, care for, “stick around”, and commit to raising their children.

The men who have decided to no longer “shack up”. You’d rather put your “needs” and feelings aside to protect her virtue.

The men who choose to respect, love, adore, cherish, and actually work at winning her heart instead of just using her or playing her.
~The men who wholeheartedly and sincerly choose to “put a ring on it” before SEX!

The men who put God first.Who center their lives around Him and wanting to please Him not just theirselves.

The men who have chosen to completely
give up watching and looking at pornography! Knowing the destruction and pain it causes…

The men that rebel against the kind of guy the world tells them that they should be. (A “player”, a cheater(adulterer), liar, abuser, an exploiter of women and girls!).

The men who love their wives AND daughters!
~The daddies who treat their daughters the way they would want another man to treat them.
~The daddies that protect, fight for, and pray for their daughters.
~The daddies that live by example. Showing their daughters what a REAL man looks like, behaves, and talks like.

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I know my list could go on….and on….

May God continue to truly BLESS all the REAL men out there!!! We are thankful for you.
And I gotta say that includes the love of my life…my husband. Thank you baby for bein’ a REAL man.

Happy Thanksgiving…
What are you thankful for this season?

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They just want to be pretty

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I seen her …
Okay, yes I admit .. I kinda watched her.
And my heart saddened.
Because it was almost like she had a huge sign attached to her forehead that read:
“I just want to be pretty”.
“I just want to be called “beautiful”,
“Pretty”.

The part that saddened me was:
She was trying too hard.
And the really really sad part was:
She didn’t even know it.

The woman I seen this particular day was an older aged woman maybe somewhere in her fourties. Maybe a mother, maybe even a grandmother.. And as she sat there in her really short, tight and revealing dress, it was like I could almost hear a cry or maybe it was just the look on her face? But she wanted, No,she NEEDED to feel pretty.
Which isn’t a “baaaad” thing entirely.

Because most women want and need to feel beautiful.
And when we don’t … it can truly “mess” with us. Sadly.
Every woman deeply and sincerely longs to be:
Beautiful ! And Wanted!
And we absolutely NEED:
Attention!

That’s why I believe one reason why girls/woman become strippers, porn stars etc because it is guaranteed attention!

When I was 15…. my “dream job” was to become a stripper.
Why???!!! What was I thinking?!
Was I stupid or something?! Seriously?
No, I was just a young girl that wanted..No, that needed attention.
Yes, I guess I believed attention -equaled- love.
What a lie.

It breaks my heart that girls try so hard to be noticed. But like I said earlier the really sad part is.. they don’t even know it.
Society makes me sick the way it poisons woman. But I also know the problem isn’t all society’s fault! A lot of the problem is also daughters with no daddies!
No daddy to tell her she’s beautiful and worth so much more than showing skin just to prove that she is pretty.
No daddy to show her how a REAL man should treat and care for her!
No daddy to remind her that The God who created her knew what He was doing that day when He skillfully and wonderfully crafted her. And that she truly is His masterpiece.

So Now when I see a girl young or old with very little clothes on, or tight revealing clothes.. or simply just trying too hard to be noticed.. (wherever it may be).
I also happen to see that little invisible “sign”on her forehead that reads:

“I just want to be pretty”.

And I don’t look with judgemental eyes, or with an “holier than thou” attitude…NOT AT ALL! I watch with compassion, with sympathy, and yes sadness.

Because
I know now….. that once was me.

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Related articles:
“Oh baby give me some Chivalry”…

Daughters w/ no Daddies

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Women-Fight for them..or use them?

When we decided that a woman was not a worthy thing to fight for, we began using them.

And if you could hear a woman’s hearts cry..I think it would sound a little or maybe a lot like this: …..

“I don’t want to be used, I want to be loved…oh so loved”.

“Am I beautiful enough, good enough?.. To be fought for, to be waited for, to be treated right?!”

“I’m tired of having to give myself away just to feel love…that at the end isn’t even real”.

“I’m lonely.”
-“I’m ugly.”
-“I’m not enough.”
-“I’m all used up.”
-“Love doesn’t exist.?”

“Is there something more? “

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I believe every woman’s, every girls heart crys out many things.
Sometimes…if I look deep into her eyes I think I can even hear it.. if I look deeply enough. As I pass her by on my out of the mall.
As I see her getting her hair done at the salon.
As I wait at the stop light, and she sits in the car right beside me.
As I drive by while she walks home from school.
As she takes my order at the fast food place I’m at.
As I hand her my insurance card at the doctors office.
Etc
Etc
Etc

4 words:
FIGHT FOR US MEN!
Even if some women may laugh, sneer, or deny it. I believe we as women WANT to be cherished, loved, respected, adored, and yes fought for.
We are worthy. We need you.

Ladies:
Act like it!Give them something to fight for! How? Oh if you really want to know how.. please read more about that here. “Oh baby, give me some chivalry !!
And here–> “Do you feel worthy?”

Lots of women have screamed and yelled out “independence” and “I dont need no man”! But truly at the end it’s made them feel more alone, and bitter once they realize that even if they may “believe” they don’t, their children surely do!

God did in fact create Adam first.
God knew what He was doing. 🙂
Women…lets be ladies that show we are WORTHY!
Men…prove to us that you are REAL men by fighting for us…not using us!

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